Headache and flu please go away :'(

So we went to ACJC fun fair on Saturday in the morning. Alot of people... I kept going with different groups of people cos always got split up, what to do. haha. but over all not that bad. Then I left to Church office first to set up projection things as usual :) Youth service was really awesome! God is really showing His favour in our youth group! Alot of salvations too! Praise God :D I believe the friends that I am praying and bringing will be saved too! By faith everything is possible! The message by Ps Adrian was powerful. It was [It's done] - Grace. Wow! Where else can we find such a gracious God, a loving father who loves us unconditionally! We don't have to do anything to earn His love, we just need to receive Him into our lives, that's it. No matter how rotten we are, He still will be there to embrace us, hide us under His wings of love. powerful!
After youth, wanted to go for class gathering at Marina Square, but then by the time I go down, they should be gone already, so I decided not too. Sorry Nickt! Happy belated Birthday anyway :D But I had great fun during dinner. I was superrrrr hyper, don't know why. Haha.

Todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
Had breakfast with Monica at mac at greatworld, then we left to church. I was at the kids, wanted to sit in, relax and observe, at the end I helped out cos they were lack of helpers. Hehe! But it was worth while :) The kids were so adorable! And they love God so much! They sang their hearts out, - this is what I WITNESSED okae? not from other people. hehe. Then the activity time was really cute too! Agnes taught about the 5 loaves and 2 fishes thing. The kids then played the musical mat (just like musical chair) and then they were seperated into their age groups and they did different thing. Wahahaha they were so adorable!! I mixed in well with them :)
After church, went to have lunch with Joyce and Alloycius at Zion hawker, then went to walk around for a while at great world, bought a book! YAY! readddinngggssssss
So then I went home, took 1 hour nap, got woken up by many smses, felt quite weak and all, but went to meet with abi for a while at Toa payoh central. Had fun with her too. Then came home and stuff.. here I am typing away even though I am down with flu and headache. I guess cos I was lack of sleep, slept at 1am and woke up at 7++ this morning, actually not lack of sleep, 6 hours is alot you know. Hmmm...

2 weeks to attachment!! (:

Hello People :)
I am going to blog before leaving to meet some of my goodie friends for Laura's school fun-fair :)

Thursday
Went to shop at NTUC with Monica and bought alot of things :) Stayed home the whole day until evening - had dinner with Rafidah at Toa Payoh Central. I really love hanging out with H2R2VY :D

Friday
Had lunch with Yin Xin at AMK Hub, yummy! She had to go back to school :( If not can chat longer... Then went to meet with Monica and we went to her school for a while to pass something to her teacher an then we went Bugis to shop! YAY! I bought myself a 3/4 pants :D Then we had our early dinner at Swensens. Oh before shopping we played at the arcade! Really fun :D:D We left to CO after that, waiting for life group to start :D Weee! It was fun! Anna came too!! :D:D:D

Joses talked about speech last Saturday and yesterday during Life group. It hit me really really really really hard, I then began to realised things that had been happening in my life for the past 3 or 4 months or so, I had been letting people and God down :( I don't want it to happen anymore, I want to move on, I want to really mean what I say, I don't want to make empty promises or words anymore. It hurts God, it hurts people. I am going to speak faith into the atmosphere, into people's life, I am going to prophesise over my life. I am tired of being scared and insecure about things anymore, I want to build myself up, I am going to trust you, YOU. I am not going to be selfish to my friends either. I am going to move on with my life, no more holding back :)

Translated version
The perfect love
have I received from You
Not because of my goodness
But by the love You give freely
I was restored by You, You make me worthy
To call you Father

You gave me whatever I requested
Everytime I search, I will find
I knocked at Your door , and You opened it
Because you are my Father, my everlasting Father
You would not let
Me take a step alone
You were always there for me
Because you are my Father, my everlasting Father

Indeed Lord, You are my Father, everlasting Father. No matter how far away I am from You, You call me back to You and never let me go. Lord, thank You that what ever I have asked for, You will give to me in the right timing and right purpose. Thank You oh Lord.

There were only Ben and I who came for prayer group today but it's ok cos we prayed and it was really good time. After prayer group, we headed to IMM to find Gavin, had lunch and then I took bus home while the two of them left for teamers' meeting at paya lebar. My headache is like back again :( I don't know why, I have been sleeping enough, have good rest, drink alot of water and all, but still like that. please pray for me ya :) On a lighter note, I am starting to enjoy reading now. Been online for a while and spend the rest of the time with God (devotion), reading magazine, books, watching tv and etc. This week I've been speding alot of time at home, good girl, right? :)

Ah supposed to go running with Hua Yee later, but then she couldn't make it :( Soooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!

Hehe! I couldn't recall that we took this photo during youth camp last year! it's so nice, right? :D
Dearest girls, I miss you all =) Thank you for everything!

I am having terrible headache and upset stomach now :(
I feel really weak
But I can't seem to sleep well

First part of the morning yesterday was trying to find out if I can apply for Permenant Resident (PR) and getting some paper work done for it. My school mentor said I could! YAY! Now just waiting for some more paper work to be done and calling to ask more questions from ICA. HEHE! Oh and good news, I didn't know that the tuition grant bonding thing, I can work for Singapore and the money I earnt is for myself and not for the school fee! I am super blurr. Hmmm... then went to Joanna's house which is opposite my condo to fold the brochures and maps, I left when Keenan came. I headed to Borders, bought the books and magazines I wanted. YAY! Then Momo came to join me, slacked a while at Coffee Bean with her as she ate her dinner and then we took bus home. I am starting to pick up reading again and it's fun especially reading the things you like to read about :)

Then today, went to Joanna's place again at 9++ with Benjamin and Reagan and we finally completed the outreach project! YAY! Mission accomplished! Now only left distributing them to the year 1s. Wohoooooooooo!! I decided to come home and took an 1 hour nap and here I am typing away, but feeling rather weak :( Please pray for me that I will get well soon ya :)

Thank you friends!

Lord, I am holding on to You, never let You go

YAY! Praise God! Have been praying for my class girls and finally God responded! I am so happy for Abi! I will continue praying for my class mates to be saved even though we will not be in the same class anymore. God will do His mighty work. He is already moving so mightily in Culture*! I believe every where else too!

Heard from Vickie and Joyce that the children in the kids ministry raised their hands, closed their eyes to worship God during worship time and they were touched by God!! I am really amazed! Kids today are getting more hungry for the touch of God! How about us? Are we as desperate as them? Are we desperate for the touch of God, willing to be humble and want Him to help us with our lives instead of going with our own strenght?

Do have faith like a child :)
Everything will be alright with Him!

2000+++ years ago, Jesus rose up from the dead. He died on the cross for every single one of us and rose again to show that God has accepted Jesus' sacrifice for us. How noble was that act!
Rejoicceeee ! :):)
The presentation today was awesome too! Had lunch with a group of youth at subway at great world city, talked and laughed for a while and then I left to find Joyce and then I left to take bus home with Stefanie. Oh dear, culture spot next month... HAHA
Youth service was really good too. The sermon by Joses spoke to me really hard. It was about "the power of speech" From now on, I shall think before I speak and behave. It's really important to do that. :)

Alright, logging off.
Byebye!

:)
Work was fun yesterday, alot of work to be done, played a while and all. Came home after work and Rieka is back from camp! I missed her so much, just that she slept from 5plus till today early in the morning, so only got to talk to her before I left for church :) Oh, if you noticed, Monica and I looked like twins today. Hee. We planned to wear similar.
Ah, it feels like Sunday today. But it's Good Friday! Service was so awesome! It was a musical presentation followed by word by Ps Chin. After that a group of us went to Zion Hawker for lunch, and then Smin, Jane, 2 of wee leong's cousins and I went Marina Square to window shop. HA! My feet ached alot. But it's ok, I had alot of fun today. Came home, like a dead fish, went to take a nap for a while and then woke up to have dinner, talked to siblings, rieka and maid... and here I am online :)

I'll never know how much it costs, to see my sin up on that cross

I am taking a break from folding the papers for the outreach project that my prayer group are doing :) Today was indeed a long yet fun day I had spent with the prayer group people. Met up with Keenan & Benjamin in the morning at Cronation (is that spelt like that?) plaza at bukit timah to get the things done and printed. At the end we spent about 3 hours there before heading to school to start work. Stayed in school after that until about 5 close to 6pm and took cab back to Joanna's place to put things down at her place before I headed home. I really love today, funny conversations, jokes, teasings, blasting of hillsong songs, companions, getting the outreach thingy done (: I really love them so much, they made my day so beautiful today. Btw, I will continue folding the papers, if not no TIME! HAHA!!

Yesterday was good too. Went to have lunch with Rieka's parents and friends & then headed to Toa Payoh to meet Nadia to walk to Ephraim's house together. Life group was good too :) I am very excited to see what God is and has been doing in Delta Zone :):):):) Came home for dinner, after which was chatting and playing 02jam. Did I mention that I am addicted to 02Jam now? Oh I didnt :) I really like the game, I am slow though, level 4 =.= "

Weee! Okae, I shall continue folding the papers now.
My eyes are like half shut now. But it's okae, doing God's work is the best thing ever :D

Hello (:
The weekend has been really awesome.
Ps Daniel Chua came to preach at Culture on Saturday & again it spoke to me. I think at this period of time God is speaking to me through most of the sermons too.

Went to watch Step up 2 with Joanna yesterday at Plaza Sing. It was a great show! I want to watch Step up 1 if I can find it online. It's nice going out with her :) HEHE! We shall hang out more okae? I love chatting with you. :) After which we had leaders gathering at Carls Junior at Plaza Sing in the evening. Then had mini celebration for Rieka's dad's birthday at home. they were supposed to go celerbate at a restaurant for dinner, at the end his dad didnt' reach Singapore till about 11plus pm. :0

5 things found in my bag
♂ bible
♂ journal
♂ tissue papers
♂ cell phone
♂ wallet

5 favourite things in my room
♂ comfy bed
♂ bears
♂ sunshine
♂ boxes of accessories
♂ MIRROR

5 things I’ve always wanted to do
♂ to move on in life - grow more in God
♂ to loose weight
♂ reach out to the lost
♂ travel around the world
♂ to serve in Kids ministry

5 things I’m currently into
♂ spending time with Him
♂ slacking
♂ youth services
♂ church
♂ friends

5 people I’m tagging
♂ Nadia
♂ Crystal Lee
♂ Shang Min
♂ Melissa Yeo
♂ Benjamin

Omgosh~
I am going to enter into my final year in poly in about 29 days time.
Time seriously flies
Which will cheer me up for some reasons
One of it is to further my studies overseas and Missy Anita is very excited to see me there :p

Goodbye year 2,
Goodbye my dearest classmates for 1 semester that we will not be together in class anymore
I will serious seriously miss you all :'(
Especially Missy Ginny & the girls.
When are we going out???
When???
Ginny! I need to catch up with you!!

Simone too!!
And my phsycology class mates,
When's outing?!

God is so good to bless me with such wonderful friends in my life
They have never failed to make my days in school
I am going to miss you all because you all will not be in the same attachment as me :(
I will be so bored there.
Arrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Wah! It's been a few days since I updated my blog due to a few reasons...
( I am using Monica's laptop )

#1 Laptop charger kept spoiling. I need to go to SIM LIM Square again today for the 3rd time to change the charger =.=
#2 Didn't feel like updating
#3 Appeared offline on MSN - left laptop on but away from key board

Life group on Tuesday was awesome :) Delta Zone spent time making cards to appreciate their friends as an outreach :)

Finally met up with Rachel and Hua Yeeeeeeeee !!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D :D Had great time catching up with them. Oh was at Ps the whole day... got to see some culture friends too :) oh oh oh!! Wednesday morning had prayer group, there were 3 of us only but it was great time praying and talking about God and Ben was really good explaining questions that Adrian has about God :) YAY!

Thursday & Friday was spent working in CO, really good. I am glad I spent time at home on Thursday after work. But a bit sad also cos I missed the fun that the guys have in badminton thingy :) It's ok, I will join in next time. Life group yesterday was awesome too! Am very inspired by the testimonies of outreaches that the prayer groups and Kai Zone have done. Weeeeee!! Then we came out with ideas for our Alpha Zone also. Will confirm the next cell group time.. Wohooooooooooooooooo

Sorry I am very hyper now, so you can see all my typings are so random... ohoh... got back result... it's not good but it's ok cos I know I deserve it, I will make sure I FOCUS 100% for my attachment to catch up with it. It's no point being depress or complain about how good or bad my result is ... cos it's God that is doing things :)

YAY! Youth service later!!! Ps Daniel Chua coming!! He is really good!! And and and yin xin, yoke san and anna are coming toO!! I am so excited!! I believe 80 youths will come today :)

Dear friends,
Thank you for everything :)

Urrggghhhhh... I hope today will be the last day that I go SIM LIM to change my charger. if not i will be very urgggghhhhh... hahaha..


byebye

Good morning! *GRINS*

I am so happy! Wanted to slack somemore, but I decided to do research about what I want to study. And I found the uni that has the course in Australia! Weeee!! I am so exicted, but I have to work for 3 years to pay off my school fee in Singapore before I can leave to study there. Weeeee!! Excited! Maybe I will educate myself by reading the books that I am going to buy or borrow from people. YAY! Excitedddddddddddddd!! Anyway it's not related to IT. You will know in 3 years time. haha. :p


Best friend, I miss you :(

Good morning world!

Wanna update things that God has been encouraging me with while I am struggling inside...

1) Daddy came to church with brother and Trina at the chinese side. He is very open to the gospel now and he even will be starting reading the chinese bible that my brother asked me to buy! Weee!!
2) Anna came to youth service on Saturday! She enjoyed it very much :)

Youth service was great too, Ps Adrian was talking about Don't look back which many people are struggling in also.
- In order to move to the future, we have to forget about the past, remove the baggases before moving on to new life.
Phil 3:13
Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.

God wants to get you out from the past sins, hurts, etc.
- but the problem with us is we still want to linger in our past even though we know it's bad.

God wants to wipe out your past life, old habits, sins (Gen 19:12)

Without God, we will still live in the past. God is merciful and He will send people to help you through.

Never let the devil take over you! Let the devil know his future!
We must know that past is the past, no point looking back.
We can have extraordinary life with God in our lives! :D

3) Thanks girls for praying for me at the altar call yesterday :)

4) Went out with Godma and Godsis(Hannah) after church yesterday, we had lunch at zion food centre and then went to watch April Rush at Lido :) Their companion and prayers really cheer me up alot. Hannah then accompined me to hunt for the chinese bible. We first went to far east plaza, but don have, then we travelled all the way to suntec and we almost got lost. HAHA! Came home quite late, roughly 8 plus 9 because the bus took ages to come. But it's okae, I had alot alot of fun, thanks Godma and Hannah :)

It's a beautiful morning today.
Really beautiful. I don't know why, but it is :) It's as though God is telling me to smile and I am smiling now.
I know it still hurts very badly inside of me, but I am choosing to smile, because smiling will help me to pull through :)

*BURRRRPPPPPPPP*
See the time now?! It's 1.07am as I am writing this entry
Still very full... was having alot of fun at the life group monthly birthday celebration at Nadia's place just now (Friday). Maybe will post the photos when I get them from various people :)

I guess I will take things really slowly and with a prayerful heart.
I just want things to happen naturally and not by forcing it.
I believe God will help me through this time round. :)

Psalm 143:8 - 10

9 Rescue me from my enemies, O LORD,
for I hide myself in you.

10 Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God;
may your good Spirit
lead me on level ground.

Yes!! I want to do His will, I want to follow His way, not my own way. I don't want to depend on my own strenght anymore, it sucks, it is very tiring. Trust me.
God is also all-knowing, no matter how hard we will want to hide from Him, He will expose it, not that He hates us, He wants us to learn and know that it is for our own good.

My dad has been emotionally down recently due to his eyes condition. He had gone for a few lasers and surgery for the eye but he is still worried and everything.I had been wanting to pray for him but I don't know how to pray in Chinese. HAHAH! My elder brother, who is taking leave from work, woke up as usual asking about the condition of his eyes and afterwhich gathered monica and I to pray for him. We prayed in tounges and then my brother lead the prayer in chinese. As we prayed, dad started to tear!So my brother talked more about God to him. I had to leave for prayer group then so had no chance to talk more to him. I came back home after prayer group and he approached me asking why did he tear just now when we prayed in the name of Jesus. So I explained to him saying that it is God that has touched him and he said it is very amazing! He said as he was talking to me about it, he still feel like crying! Amazing! I even told him about the testimony by Becka on how she got out from her drug struggle, it's because God was doing the work.

Oh my, God is indeed so real and amazing, so many times I've witnessed people tearing when we prayed for them and they are not sure why they teared. It's God. I am going to invite my dad to church this sunday,so please pray for him that he will accept Him!

Now I know what it really means, when we are at our darkest moment of our life, we are open, humble and hungry to seek help, which is God :) I will continue to minister to my daddy!

P/s: I feel so guilty for unwilling to bring him to see doctor (yesterday), I told him alot of excuses why I can't go with him, but now I feel that I should go with him cos I need to continue to show him the love of God :) I love you daddy!

Byebye!

Morning!!!
Yesterday was a fruitful and packed day for me. HAHA

Met up with Joanna opposite my house bus stop and we travelled to school together. Along the way was chatting with her, really fun :) Then we went to the garden waiting for the rest of the guys to come. We did our outreach project! There were 6 of us, we folded 1000 envelopes! which means each of us folded about 100-200 envelopes!! I had alot of fun there and felt very accomplished and thought of how God will bless this project and save alot of souls! YAY! But our outreach project is not just about envelopes, many other things to be done which is secret for now! HAHA!

I left at about 4, went home to put things and then went to frammie's place for culture group 1 life group! Weeeeee! I love you guys! Ephraim is an awesome leader, I am always inspired by him!

After life group, went to meet my dearest Denna in town. Omg! It's been ages since we met. I had alot of fun with her, eating our dinner, catching ups and shopped for a while. Ah! When are we going to meet up next darling?!!!!!!!

Next one to meet is Simone, when when??!! So much I need to tell you darling!!

So anyway, I will be going for prayer group, then accompany my dad to doctor and then meet Nadiaaaaaa to talk about some stuff... Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I am happy happy happy happy!
I am looking at things more positively now :)
Smile!

Alot of times I failed the test God is putting me through this period of time, yet He is still giving me so many chances to go through this test because He believes in me that I will be able to go through this test and will come out stronger.

Many times I run away from it,
Many times I gave up
Many times I want to walk the easy way instead of the narrow gate
But the truth is

Matthew 7:13
"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it."

I really really really need to pass the test that God has put me through, I cannot do things with my own strenght, He told me that how I interpet things is not what things should be, so now He is teaching me to listen to Him, no more running away, no more taking short-cuts.
I really really really want to mean what I say and support from my dearest friends to go through this painful period of time for I know if I am able to pass this test, everything else will be beautiful :)

hello :)
here's the photos taken during my younger brother's birthday cake cutting :)
it's really cute and happening cos my dad was here with us too! wohhooo!! but that day my dad seemed to be more excited than my brother. tsk. but nvm :)
enjoy the photos!

Isaiah 43

1 But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.

3 For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior; I give Egypt for your ransom, Cush ^[a] and Seba in your stead.

4 Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give men in exchange for you,
and people in exchange for your life.

5 Do not be afraid, for I am with you;
I will bring your children from the east
and gather you from the west.

Yes Lord, I will not be afraid anymore, I will hold on to You, I will walk through the fire for You are with me and I know I will come out stronger. Thank You God that no matter how rotten I am, You still love me, still asking me to come back to You. Lord, I am so unworthy, but You are always making me worthy. Thank You Lord :)

The weekend was beautiful. Youth service was awesome! Ginny and Adrian came to visit too. Thanks friends :)

The sermon was - "Outdo Yourself"

[Matthew 25:14-30]
[Phil 3:10]... I press on to reach...
Challenge and multiply the things/gifts/tasks God has given to you.
The gifts must be invested in someone else so that it can multiply, cannot hide it. let it shine!
Never ever compare yourself with people but YOURSELF!
Everyone has their own giftings, so it's useless to compare also.
God does not compare you with other people, but he compares you with yourself.


Sunday's service was awesome too! Dr Enoch ministered to us through his music. God has blessed him with such a fantastic talent and he used it to bless others. I am like very inspired to go to countries that have orphanages, I want to be exposed to the world outside, to the kids who are poor and everything. The desire in me keeps stiring and stiring to see the world, to see the children, to help, love and pray for them. That's my dream now.

Ps Chris Hope preached the word - Saviour of the world

[John 4]
Summary:
There are people out there that feels that they are neglected, abandoned, unloved, but they do not know that God is there to love them. Jesus sees the one and not the crowd.
[Luke 19] - story about Zacchaeus, the tax collector. There was a crowd wanting the attention of Jesus, but instead Zacchaeus, the one that people looked down upon, had the attention of Jesus. In John 4, it's the same, Samarian are regarded as forgotten, ignored, stay away. They don't associate with Jews, but Jesus chose to associate with them when He was on the way to Galilee. Jesus was sitting by the well resting and she offered him the water. Jesus then shared with her what is from his heart.... God is always faithful, never forsake us, His words never fail. Jesus looked past the woman and went staright to her heart. He did not judge her. after the encounter with Jesus, the people in Samaria saw something different in the woman. The woman left the earhtly sins, hurts, pasts at the well and moved away as if she is bornt again.

John 16:33 "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." whenever you face anything, there is always a promise at the end. You go through fire and will come out stronger if you persevere and hold on till the end.

John 10:10 "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."

Went to watch L Change the world. I think it's the most touching movie out of the rest of the Death Note series. [not that this movie is continous from the Death note series] :)

Monica and I spent time at the rooftop together at about 12am this morning singing to God, praying and seeking Him. It was an awesome time together. God was in our midst:)

Please keep me in your prayers for I have decisions to make. HAHAH! never ending decisions are pestering me. But it's okae cos it's for God's sake :)